I often read about how people love to have an unscheduled day.
I understand why that is appealing – the freedom, the lack of restrictions on your time – but the idea is a bit scary for me.
It’s not that I can’t envision a day without work, I am excellent at taking time off.
The problem is that if I don’t make a rough plan or a short list, my brain won’t turn off.
I guess that’s one of the ‘features’ of my ADHD.
I almost always have the feeling that I *should* be doing something else. That makes it hard to relax into my art or into my book or to just sit around chatting.
So, the only way to counter that is to plan what I am ‘supposed’ to be doing.
On a leisurely day, that might look like ‘brainstorm story ideas until 11, have tea, doodle until 11:30, get some lunch, go for a walk at 1.’
It feels kind of odd to make a schedule for a day off but it gives me the comfort of knowing that I haven’t forgotten anything and I am doing what I am ‘supposed’ to be doing.
Perhaps your brain requires you not to have a list/schedule in order to relax but my brain relaxes BECAUSE I have a list.
So, even on my restful Sunday morning* I like to have a plan.
It’s not a sign of being uptight or a control freak (I may be both of those things but this isn’t evidence of it.) It’s not a sign of working too much. And it is definitely not a sign of not being able to take time off.
It’s a sign that I know my brain and I know what I need in order to feel good about my time.
And that doesn’t mean that I plan every second. I have a big chunk of time scheduled later for ‘hanging out,’ whatever that might mean in the moment. I’ll be able to ‘wing it’ because I know that’s what is on the agenda right then. It’s what I *should* be doing!
*That’s this post you can see on my iPad…oh and a reflection of me with my floppy hat.