As I mentioned the other day, I’ve been sick this week.
And I’ve already been sick a fair bit of this month, including having a few migraines.
And I hate how feelings sick several times in a row for something starts to feel wrong, it feels like trying to get out of something, even when I’m just sick.
I can’t even begin to imagine how difficult it must be for someone with a chronic illness who has recurring bouts of being sick how difficult that must be to navigate.
I’m not sure what someone feels in those circumstances but I can imagine that it must be very hard on the brain and you must feel very frustrated by other people’s reactions and questions.
Today, as I’m starting to feel better, I’m trying to find the balance between continuing to rest and slowly doing the things that are important to me on my to do list. The things that are within my capacity, of course.
I’m not well enough to do things that have to be completed all in one go. I’m not well enough to do things outside the house. I’m not well enough to do things that involve other people that aren’t on zoom right now.
But I feel like I might be at that point tomorrow so my goal today is to ensure that I don’t ruin things for myself for tomorrow by trying to do too much today.
And to try not to feel too weird about not doing things that I technically can but that would wear me out or set me back to where I was yesterday.