I am determined not to let Fall rush by.

I am committed to noticing the changes each day.

The darkness in the morning, the earlier sunset, the changes in the colours of my daily walk.

I’m grateful for it all.

I’m waiting for an appointment and I’m absolutely delighted by the fact that they have already decorated for Halloween.

Lots of giant purple sparkly skulls, a wall with a black wreath and artistically place bats.

It’s big fun.

I’m not sure if I succeeded in having a slow September but it was far less stressful than it could have been so I’m declaring it a success.

Now that we are moving into the last three months of the year, I am even more determined to keep my stress levels low and to find some equilibrium.

I don’t want to hurtle towards December, I want to use these three months to find some systems and techniques that support my brain and that let me get where I want to go with my projects.

I’m not sure what that will look like yet but I am figuring it out.

Our festival yesterday was magnificent.

It had exactly the right atmosphere and combination of elements. It had the right energy and the right people to make it great.

I’m really tired today, but it’s a satisfying kind of tired, like when you can tell that your hard work paid off.

But even as I have been enjoying this feeling of having my hard work pay off, I can’t help but think of the fact that it’s always possible with a festival that your hard work won’t pay off that you won’t get the right combination of people or the right number of people attending to make things right.

What I’m trying to do is enjoy this feeling of satisfaction, of a job well done, and to recognize that my team would’ve done a good job even if we hadn’t gotten all the people we wanted to at the event.

Just like in so many other areas of life, I’m trying to practice letting go of the outcome and letting the work be enough.

It is definitely not easy though. ?

I have been doing pretty well with my goal to not rush around so much.

It’s been tricky to keep that goal in mind as I move through a festival this week but there have been several times that I have been flustered because I was short on time and then suddenly remembered that I don’t want to be rushing.

So, even though I didn’t have a lot of time, in each of those cases I was able to say, “Oh, right! I don’t rush.” And make the decision that while I had to keep moving fast, I was going to declare that feeing rushed wouldn’t help.

So I did.

And it make things better.

Because, after all, while reducing the number of my tasks or moving a bit faster might help me be quicker, feeling rushed doesn’t help and just makes me feel badly and arrive feeling flustered.

Deciding not to buy into the feeling of mental rushing means I arrive at my event feeling calmer and more able to do what needs doing.

And that’s a win.