Stumbling Through Choong-Moo

My first degree Black Belt test in Taekwon-Do is on March 16th. That’s 10 days away.

I have been driving myself batty stumbling through my test pattern.

Choong-Moo is my first black belt pattern (obviously) and while I always struggle to get my patterns to ‘click’, I have been having more trouble with this one than usual. I know part of it is that it is for my BLACK BELT and that is so very important to me that I want everything to be perfect. That leads to me focusing on the results instead of the process, which is never good, and that gets me one level of stuck.

Then, to complicate matters, Choong-Moo is the pattern that I have do step by step for my instructors at my test. That means I have to be able to explain the purpose and method of each action and the details of the stances (back foot turned in 15 degrees!). That’s on top of all the other things I need to know, step sparring, theory, board-breaking techniques etc. Overall, I know the purpose and method of each action in each pattern, but I have a few sticking points, and there’s a world of difference between knowing them for yourself and knowing them to recite to your instructor. Maybe if I didn’t care what Master Downey and Mrs. Downey thought then it wouldn’t be a big deal, but I do care and I want to do a good job. So there’s my second level of stuck.

Level 2.5 is the fact that I had to take a week off because of the flu right after we learned the last step of the pattern, so while I could practice at home, I couldn’t practice with the group.

Practicing at home and practicing in class are both important factors in learning your pattern, but for me they are hugely different. Trying to keep up with people for whom the pattern comes easily, trying to match your speed and rhythm to 10-15 other people, having your instructor right in front of you, it’s all a big challenge for me. I’ve been practicing, but I’ve still been stumbling in class and I’m embarrassed and frustrated about it. Not only do I want to know it for myself, but I’d be mortified to think that I had given the impression that I haven’t been practicing.

I have my pattern written out on my study sheets, I have it printed on poster board in my rec room for when I practice. I can recite it step by step.

I’ve been going to extra classes. I’ve gotten help from my instructors and from my mentors in the class (Hi Kevin and Ted!). Yet, last night, I was still stumbling. I was better than before, but still annoyingly off target.

I came home after class and started blasting through my pattern in the living room. I didn’t care about landing the stances exactly right, I didn’t care about power, I didn’t care about the height of my kicks. I ignored every last detail and just practiced moving from step to step as quickly as I could, counting the moves so I would know if I missed any. It started to feel good, it started to click.

That’s when I realized what had been going wrong all along.

I had been ignoring my own learning style.

I’m a global learner, not a sequential one. I can accept information step by step, but it doesn’t click until I have the whole picture. Once I have the whole picture in my head, how all the pieces are connected, then my practice becomes more effective and I start to FEEL the pattern in my body. I start to KNOW how it fits together subconsciously.

Usually, once I have been taught the whole pattern, I come home and blast through it a bunch of times to get the connections cemented in my brain. This time, I had been focusing on the pieces so much that I hadn’t followed my own process to get to the whole pattern.

I blasted through it 25 times last night. Then I practiced it slowly 2-3 times. I don’t have it down yet, but I’m getting there. Another few days of alternating speed practice and slow practice and I’ll have it. Then I can tweak the details.

Then, if I can stay calm during my test, I’ll be just fine.

100 Days

I want to write more, I want to be physically stronger, I want to prepare for my black belt test in Taekwondo, and, I want to play more games with my boys.

I’ve decided to focus on all of these things during the next 100 days.

cool picture

This is me battling the dragon of resistance. Drawn by my boys about 2 years ago.

 

Yes, I know that the ideal way to reach a goal is to pick one thing at a time. But I also know that sometimes we can trigger change by picking something audacious to aim for.

I’m doing both.

My main goal is to do 100 days of preparation for my black belt test.

So every day between now and February 9, I am going to do some preparation for my test – whether that is practicing my pattern, studying my theory or anything else that occurs to me.

Chance favours the prepared, and I am bringing chance into my corner by preparing thoroughly.

Everything else is something  I am taking the next 100 days to work into my schedule. Some days I’ll manage it all, some days I won’t, but by the time February 9th rolls around, I will have regular habits supporting all of those ideals. They may not be daily habits, but they’ll be regular ones.

I’m going to write about this 100 days of practice here on my blog several days per week.  Some days will be more exciting than

others.