One thing at a time, right?

It’s funny how my brain keeps insisting that if I can’t do ALL of the things then there’s no point in doing any of the things.

Time after time, I have proven my brain wrong on this. I have shown it that the only way to get things done is bit by bit. Yet, it insists that I have to be working on everything all the time or nothing at all.

This brain muddle results in me feeling like I am trapped in a weird time zone where I have lots of time to putter around yet I simultaneously have too much to do.

I am somehow busily unbusy.

And the thing that would give me peace of mind – working slowly away at my projects in the ample time I have available – is the one thing that my brain resists doing.

Luckily, once I become aware of the feeling of busy unbusyness, I can take steps to stop it. Unfortunately, it can take me a while to become aware of what’s bothering me.

ADHD is quite annoying that way (and in many other ways.)

May 2: Two Monsters

I’m drawing ‘MAYbe 20 Monsters’ again this year.

MAYbe 20 Monsters is challenge I made up for myself a few years back in which, shockingly, I draw maybe 20 monsters or more in May.

Why monsters?

I like drawing monsters!

I’m drawing them all on the one page and later I’ll create a scene that incorporates them all.

A drawing of a pink snake-like monster with purple spots and purple wings.
Today’s Monster: a pink snake-like creature with purple spots and purple wings
An white and teal octopus-like monster but with three lumpy limbs.
Yesterday’s monster, a creature that looks like a lumpy octopus but with only three appendages. This monster has two large eyes and is mostly white but with teal colouring around the edges of its limbs and its face.

Birthday!

Once upon a time, I tried to cram AllOfTheFun into my birthday, as if I wasn’t going to have another chance to do fun things all year.

Now, I have picked just a few things and I am doing them without the stress of trying to fit everything into one day.

This post is brought to you by a very relaxed Christine.

A small outdoor fire in a covered fire pit.
A cup of tea while watching a fire in our wee fire pit is an excellent way to celebrate. Image description: a small fire in a covered outdoor fire pit on a dark evening.

On July 1, I Remember

As I was writing a post about Memorial Day here in NL today, I was struck by the fact that this province has been mourning the loss of those soldiers for 105 years.

We all know there were close to 800 soldiers in the regiment who were part of the ‘big push,’ the ‘July Drive’ at Beaumont-Hamel and that the next morning only 68 men answered roll call.

That loss affected life in our province for many years. It had an enormous emotional, personal, cultural, and economic impact on the people of NL.

Those are all facts.

Sad and horrible facts.

Writing them down today in the context of also preparing posts to honour the Indigenous children whose graves have been located near the so-called “residential schools” that were actually essentially assimilation centres where children were abused and mistreated threw the whole thing into stark relief.

This province has been publicly mourning the loss of those men for all of these years but our country has essentially left Indigenous people to mourn alone.

Even though there were far more victims. Even though the personal, emotional, social, cultural, and emotional impact has been far wider.

Even though Canadian government and church policies are clearly at fault.

This wasn’t a mistake. It wasn’t a lack of knowledge. Residential schools and other racist policies were by design.

Yet, there has been no public mourning until now. And it still isn’t a formal day of mourning, it’s a movement but not a public policy.

I recognize that it is a different sort of situation. And I know that a public day of mourning is only the beginning of what needs to be done.

Reconciliation is going to be a long process and there is a lot of work to do.

But a formal public acknowledgement through a day of mourning would be a step forward.

PS – My friend Cate has written an excellent post about the movement to cancel Canada Day. Please check it out.

A photo of blue forget-me-not flowers surrounded by greenery.
Image description: A photo of small blue forget-me-not flowers amid greenery.

More resigned than annoyed

It snowed today.

On June 10th.

Two days after some straight-up summer weather.

I couldn’t work up a full positive attitude but I do feel kind of resigned to the facts here. (Acceptance is important, right?)

June is often awful here in Newfoundland and Labrador. And we have had so many foggy, rainy, cold Junes that our recent good weather is the aberration, not this.

It’s pretty rare for us to have our patio furniture set up by this point and the leaves are hardly ever put by now.

But still, the fact that it is has been so warm and so green makes this snow a sort of insult.

This was not in the plan.

A backyard deck, set up for summer, is covered in snow.
Image description: a corner of a backyard patio, decorated with star shaped lights. There is a deck chair with a red cushion on it under a leafy tree. There is snow on the deck, on the ground, and on the tree.