Oh! Here’s my blog

Well, it looks like I got out of the habit of writing in here again.

I’ve been doing a lot of writing in other places, but kind of lost track of the fact that I like to write in here.

So here are a few scattered thoughts that I’m putting down in one place to get myself started.

1) Yesterday, I spent a lot of the day writing and I really enjoyed being in that focussed headspace. I need to create more room in my schedule for more focussed time like that. I want to do a lot more writing.

Despite the fact that I know that the more I write, the easier is to write, I always forget that when I’m trying to get started.

And I am going to put that re-realization into practice and put more posts on my professional blog.

2) On to something else, I attended a rehearsal last night for a show that I’m in on Thursday and it was really exciting to be around a different group of creative people.

A lot of these performers are comedians, and it was interesting to see their take on the same issues that storytellers face and to hear their vocabulary around how to re-shape something to make it closer to what you want.

It just reminds me of how much I enjoy getting different types of creative people together to work on things or to give each other information. It’s something I’m planning to do a lot more throughout 2025 and beyond.

3) I’ve also been feeling drawn to making more zines lately and I’m going to actually put that practice into action starting today.

By the end of the day, I’m going to have a series of ideas sketched out for my first zine of this year

Projects! That’s what I want.

I’m having one of those revelations that feels so familiar that I’m sure I have had it before and just didn’t carry it far enough.

With a lot of my writing and drawing, I have often said that I enjoy the creative practice but I don’t feel like it is going anywhere. I feel like it isn’t leading to anything.

I am already very creativity-oriented so I don’t need to add creativity for its own sake – I already have that baked into my life.

What I need is a way to help me focus and do something that has a plan, something with a defined end point. A reason to start and then to stop some specific aspects of my practices.

A way to see my skills develop.

A bit of a challenge.

I need to pick some damn projects, assign myself a time frame, and then make some cool stuff.

I may have had this revelation before but this incarnation feels really useful and tangible.

More think-y than write-y

In the last couple of days, my brain has been absolutely filled with ideas but none of them are finished cooking.

And that makes it really hard to write.

Knowing that all of these cool ideas are simmering makes all of my easily accessible thoughts feel pretty dull and/or makes me feel like I should wait until they are ready before I write.

However, I know better than to fall for that.

Experience has taught me that:

– My current ideas only feel dull in comparison to those simmering ideas because those simmering ideas feel perfect (untested things often do.)

– Waiting until my ideas are ‘ready’ often means that I won’t write at all.

So, here I am writing a post that’s kind of a placeholder but at least it reminds me that any writing I do is helpful in the long term.

All Thinky…Again!

I have had some really terrific conversations this week about all kinds of great things – storytelling, business, volunteer work, finances. I feel really excited and hopeful about the possibilities on all fronts.

But this is where the tricky part comes in…

My brain wants to do all of it at once.

In fact, if I try to approach it any other way my brain gets really cranky about it and sometimes refuses to do anything at all.

So, I’m all thinky again over here.

What does my brain need in order to feel safe doing just one thing at a time?

What pattern of activity can I create in order to convince my brain that progress is being made?

How can I *see* that progress AND not try doing all of the things at the same time?

So, yeah, like I said: I’m all thinky…again.

Planning for June

I had some fun plans in place for May but obviously my focus was elsewhere this month.

Now, as I try to work out what I want to do in June I am feeling rusty and kind of weird.

I know that I shouldn’t take on ‘too much’ but what’s too much?

And I definitely shouldn’t leave myself without enough to do because that leads to melancholy in the best of times. Also, what’s enough to do?

I have no idea what my capacity is now and I definitely can’t guess what it will be in a month.

I often struggle with this kind of planning anyway, my present circumstances aren’t making it any easier.

Glerg.