I don’t know what to say about this first Christmas Day without my Dad except that I missed him and that it felt weird not to be worrying about him.

And really what more is there to say?

Today was much less hectic that most Christmas Eves have been but between 5-8 when I was trying to figure out how to cook the meal we had ordered was absolutely maddening.

I had most of the day planned for ease but that part was really glitchy. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong and I thought my brain was going to break.

Good news, though, my brain made it through relatively unscathed.

I had plenty of time to do everything I needed and wanted to do today.

This is positively unprecedented.

I actually felt a little unnerved this morning when I realized that I didn’t have a lot of things that I needed to do right away.

This is what comes of proper medication, a determination to dial things back, and some good luck.

I hope this is a sign of how things can be on a regular basis.

I have my Covid booster and my flu shot yesterday and I didn’t feel great last night and earlier today.

I had a little bit of a sore throat, I was a little sniffly, and I was quite achey.

In fact, any place I have had an injury and any place that I sometimes have aches and pains was aching and paining.

And this morning when I woke up my index finger, middle finger and thumb on both hands were asleep and they felt weird for hours.

Apparently, that kind of numbness is a possible sign of carpal tunnel syndrome so now I am wondering if I’m getting a glimpse of the future if I don’t take care of my wrists.

PS – I called this ‘a pinch of trouble’ because I had trouble making that motion this morning. Yes, I think I’m funny. 😉

I had a really enjoyably busy day today and I felt like I was making good decisions about my time – a rare feeling for me.

I was able to plan out my (many) errands today and not just get stuck on the metaphorical hamster wheel once I got started.

Is this what neurotypical people take for granted?

I’m jealous.