Last week felt very hectic and I found myself scrambling a lot.

I don’t want to repeat that this week so I am trying to figure out what will help me develop a feeling of ease and orderliness.

My brain is not keen on that plan.

It takes a lot of effort for me to imagine all the things I want to get done and to consider prioritizing them so my brain just wants to forge ahead and hope for the best.

I know that doesn’t always make for a satisfying week because I end up being reactive instead of responsive.

I end up prioritizing ‘on the fly’ which doesn’t always result in good decisions.

It often means that I get a lot of tasks done but I haven’t done my important work.

So my question for myself this week is “How do I make it easier to prioritize my tasks?”

I don’t know the answer yet but I am going to work on it.

Truth be told, every day is Creativity and Innovation Day for me but I like that there’s a day when I can remind everyone to join me.

Creativity is the lens I use to look at the world.

It’s a tool I use in every part of my life.

It’s a problem-solving approach.

It’s about seeing what *is* and what else *could* be.

And EVERYONE can bring their ideas and their experiences together to create new things, to solve problems, and to mix and match what we already have.

Creativity adds more fun to my life.

And I hope you let it add more fun to yours too.

It just seems cruel for the weather to decide to be sunny today.

Sure, it’s a Saturday, so it’s good to have sun on the weekend.

But I’m not feeling well and it’s the worst stage of not feeling well.

You know, the stage where you *can* do the things that really have to be done but you shouldn’t overdo it?

And the stage where you feel a little bit like you might be malingering just to get out of your tasks?

A part of my brain balks at that immediately – how is resting malingering?

Why do I have these fears of being lazy or fears that I am trying to get away without doing my fair share?

I know that ADHD is part of the answer – it’s wired into my brain that if I tried harder I could do all of the things. Even if those things aren’t mine to do or even if I have already done a lot. If there is more to do, I must not have done enough. (Yes, this is as frustrating to experience as it is to read.)

Consciously, intellectually, I know that resting when I am sick is the right thing to do. Consciously, intellectually, I know that I do enough (and then some.)

But being sick but still recovering puts me into that tangle of fear that I am trying to get away with something.

And weather like this makes it worse.

It’s sunny and beautiful but it’s chilly.

So I’m getting the ‘get outside and do something’ feeling but it is being countered by the fact that I need to rest and that it is too cold (and too early in the season) to do a lot of my outdoor things.

So, yeah, the weather is being mean to me right now.

That jerk.

Gah.

Late yesterday afternoon, I ended up with a gravelly voice and a sore throat. Then I progressed to generally feeling unwell.

My night’s sleep didn’t help.

And my brain is insisting on looping through ‘Are you sick because the rest of your week was so hectic or did the week feel hectic because you were coming down with something?’ Over and over.

It’s not even a useful question but my brain wants to solve the mystery of ‘Why am I sick?’

Hopefully it will decide on one answer or another and shush eventually.

Meanwhile, I must rest.

I just have a bunch of drafts, so I won’t be sharing them here.

In a challenge like this, I find that the poems that I write are the least important parts.

The drafts that I write are interesting, but kind of ordinary. They aren’t brilliant, they aren’t evidence of my singular genius.

They are just snippets of ideas, scraps of something.

But there are a lot of them.

As the month goes on, my brain gets into poem-mode and starts looking for things to write poetically about.

Thinking like that feels really good.

And THAT’S why I like doing this challenge.