I’m spending a lot of time in my head these days.

And it feels like everything I want to write about is too complicated or too big for me to get into in the time that I have.

That means I’ve been avoiding writing and in the big picture that’s not gonna be helpful.

So I’m posting this kind of ?placeholder today and trying to come back for a longer writing session tomorrow.

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I’m feeling extremely grateful for this long weekend.

Sure it’s not particularly original to be thankful for Thanksgiving weekend, but I’m rolling with it all the same.

I really need this little break, an extra day out of my usual routine.

And I guess really what I’m getting is an extra day from other peoples routines. The fact that things are closed on Monday and that other people are taking a break means that I will really have the freedom to shape my own schedule on that day.

I’ve been having a lot of trouble with time lately. My schedules don’t seem to be staying in place, things are taking longer than they usually do, and I’m finding that people are not getting back to me with information and then when they do they’re in a big hurry.

And since I struggle with prioritization, it really adds to my own level of stress. I can’t tell how seriously to take them, how much their priorities should become mine.

And that’s damn tiring.

I’m glad to be getting a break from it.

And it goes something like this:

“Christine, why are you in my face with your phone?”

(It’s because I love her face)

Well, after two weeks of extreme busyness, and then almost 2 weeks of not feeling well, I finally feel like myself again.

I woke up this morning, feeling rested and really clear minded and determined to have a really really satisfying day.

And calling it a satisfying day is very different than calling it a good day. A satisfying day is a good day. It’s one type of good day but the focus is different. I’m not trying to make it be good. That’s not the end in itself. What I’m aiming for is to have a sense of satisfaction with the things that I did and the way I spent my time.

It doesn’t have to be all fun. And it definitely won’t be all work. It will be somewhere in between a good balance between the two and I will have finished a few tasks that feel like they’re hanging over me.It’s kind of odd the way that some tasks hang over me even if I can’t get them done and others just wait until I get back to them. There doesn’t seem to be a real pattern in which ones hang and which ones don’t.

It’s not that tasks for other people or tasks that people are waiting on are automatically ones that hang.

And it’s not necessarily the tasks that feel most important that hang over me.

Instead, there is some other quality of those tasks that makes hang above me.

And it strikes me as I’m writing this that it would probably be beneficial to figure out what that quality is. ?