There’s nothing wrong and it certainly wasn’t a bad day but it has felt all out of order.
It’s as if I did everything at the wrong time all day.
Even though there were no specific times for me to do things today.
Well, except for tea with my friend at 2pm but I did that at the right time.
My brain clock must be a bit further off that usual, I guess.
I’m trying to teach myself how to make a folded paper craft.
I’m doing ok with it but it’s kind of like I am teaching myself to be patient AND teaching myself a new skill at the same time.
Let’s just say it’s tricky.
Aside from blog posts, I haven’t gotten much writing done this year.
I’m assuming the problem is mostly that I haven’t chosen a specific time to write and/or that I haven’t narrowed down what I want to write about.
That’s the downside with being a creativity coach – I know the damn solutions to the problems even though I can’t automatically apply them.
I wish it was a magic trick and that identifying the issue would immediately make it sort itself out.
Maybe 10 or 12 years ago I bought this hat that I really like.
It’s a black beanie with a quote from Neil Gaiman on it ‘Make Good Art.’* He’s not the only person to ever say that, of course, but it’s part of a longer quote and I bought the hat from his website so it works for me.
Except that it doesn’t work for me.
Well, the quote works for me and the idea of it on a bay works for me but the hat itself?
It’s teeny.
It was supposed to be one size fits all but it doesn’t fit me.
So, I have been moving it around from storage spot to storage spot for years. I don’t want to part with it but I can’t wear it.
Recently, though, I brewed some tea in a smallish teapot and needed to finish something before I could sit down, drink tea, and read.
My other tea cozy is for a much larger pot so I didn’t want to use that. This teeny hat came to mind and suddenly I had solved two problems.
*I also approve of making bad art, or any art at all. The process is way more important to me than the results are.
My husband has been sick for the past few days so for the first two days of this work week, I have been opening his shop first thing in the morning for his staff.*
Having a fixed time to be ‘at work’ has made me realize that I need to get up earlier overall.
I have to leave at 8:15 to open his shop on time and I’ve been getting up at 7:30, which felt like plenty of time.
And maybe it is, on paper, but it doesn’t FEEL like enough time.
45 minutes is not enough time for my brain to wrap itself around feeding the dog, having my own breakfast, and getting ready for the day.
This is especially true for when I have to leave the house for part of the day but I think the same holds true for working at home.
I often wish I had gotten down to work earlier but I struggle to make the switch from ‘just waking up’ me to ‘I can work now’ me.
And if my morning goes a bit sideways, it can throw off my whole day.
So, if I want to have lots of time to do the things that are important to me, if I want to feel in charge of my schedule, I have to change when I get up.
And I probably need a plan for what I will do before work and ‘at work’, even if I am not actually leaving my house that day.
Now I guess I have to experiment with how much earlier I should set my alarm.
*His senior staff are working on a project at another location.
