This week I taught a creativity workshop, took a drawing workshop and a Zine workshop, and I told a story on stage at a public event.
Today, I’m going to an ‘Art Crawl’ where people can drop by our organization’s table to try a couple of activities.
I just need to add some writing to my day today and this will be a perfectly creative week.
In my efforts to get things done ‘before I forget’ and/or not to hyper-fixate on one task and ignore everything else on my list, I often end up treating my day as a series of things to check off.
I end up feeling like the important thing is get things done rather than to enjoy the process of doing them.
I just set a timer so I could relax into reading my book and drinking my tea for 20 mins before getting started on my day’s work.
After a few sips of tea, I suddenly found my mind wandering to my to do list, because I had mentally checked off ‘drink tea.’
That’s not good for me and it’s a waste of a good cup of tea.
I have to find a middle ground between ‘drink tea and read all day’ and ‘take two sips and check it off.’
I end up feeling rushed far too often to do it to myself unnecessarily.
The workshop yesterday was delightful. Exactly what I needed.
And even though I didn’t completely understand what was going on, the instructor’s approach made it safe to feel that way.
It was a really interested exploration of the patterns of our inner worlds – not our mental space but our sense of our bodies from the inside.
*To be clear though, these fears of being the only one who doesn’t get it were not irrational. That exact scenario has played out MANY times.
[I wrote this on Wednesday but apparently closed the app before publishing it.]
And I’m a bit scared.
Well, apprehensive, really.
I’m not scared of being creative,
I’m not worried about trying something new,
I’m afraid of not fully grasping the instructions and feeling stupid and…
Well the short version is that I hate the thought that I might make things more complicated for the instructor because she will have to explain it in a different way or she might be concerned that I am upset or something and…
I’m overthinking again.
I love teaching workshops.
I love the energy.
I love creating a space where people have room to try out ideas, to think about their work differently, and to be a little kinder to themselves about the things they are trying to do.
And today’s group was filled with especially wonderful people who enjoyed taking that little bit of time for their creativity.
And I enjoyed helping them.
