Plans for May

I’ve been writing a poem a day in April, which has been great fun and I have been really surprised to discover that I can express myself well in that genre.

(And by ‘express myself well’ I mean that I am saying what I mean to say in a way that is pleasing to me. That’s different than saying that my poems are good. Some are good and some are ok. And both are grand by me at this point.)

I’m going to take a break from daily poetry though and do a story a day in May (along with Julie and the team at, you guessed it! Storyaday.org

Will I write a perfect publishable story every day in May?

I will not.

Will I write something vaguely resembling a story every day in May?

I certainly will.

Soon, soon, soon

Last night, when I let Khalee out at around midnight, it was cool and crisp outside but it wasn’t cold.

It made me hopeful that I’ll soon be able to sit out on the patio at night and draw.

And that soon I’ll be doing yoga outside instead of in.

And soon I’ll have pots of flowers everywhere.

Soon.

Soon.

Soon.

A photo of a patio chair in the corner of a patio at night
Image description: A nighttime photo of a patio chair in a corner on my wooden patio. There are white lights strung on the railing behind the chair. There is still snow on the ground and it can be seen through the metal rungs of the railing. A leafless tree is in the background.

A longer walk

Yesterday, after a meeting, I decided to walk home.

Most of the year, this walk would be pretty straightforward but with snow still in patches on the paths , it was a bit uncertain.

I still enjoyed it though.

I really like walking for transportation but my ADHD used to get in the way quite often and I would find that I didn’t have quite enough time to get myself to my planned destination and I’d need to take the car.

It was easier if I got dropped off because there was less timing pressure for getting home.

Now though, after years of meditation and conscious work on how to make my own ADHD life flow more smoothly, I can usually plan enough time to walk in either direction or I can decide on the best plan in advance.

All of this is to say that I had an enjoyable walk home yesterday and I felt grateful for a bit of time to move and think and listen to a podcast.

Also, I saw a cool tree.

A grey tree trunk with some parts of the roots above ground
I don’t know exactly what I find so cool but I really like this tree. Image description: the grey trunk of a (currently) leafless medium-sized tree with parts of some of the larger roots visible above ground. The trunk splits into two large parts (branches?) about 3ft from the ground and there is a whole in the branch (?) on the right side that looks like a monster eye. It’s surrounded by dead grass and leaves and there is a big patch of snow and other trees in the background nearby.

Ugh, the weather

It’s downright disheartening to see everyone’s sunny Spring photos on Facebook and Instagram when our forecast looks like this:

A screencap of cloudy, chilly, rainy weather for the next 10 days.
Sigh.
Image description: a screencap from my weather app that shows no sunshine for the next 10 days, windy weather from now until Monday with temperatures ranging from -1 to 5, cloudy weather on Tuesday and Wednesday with temperatures from 0 to 10, and rainy weather on Thursday and Friday with temperatures from 2-10 and possible lightning on Friday.

I could handle the lack of sun if the temperatures were warmer. I could handle the chilliness if the sun would come out.

This though? This is no fun.

I’m just trying to focus on the fact that the temperatures are trending upward.

For four days next week, the temperature won’t drop below zero.

Let’s see that as a reason for hope, hey?

Reminding Myself To Rest

No matter how many times I remind myself that work and rest are part of the same cycle, I still forget.

It’s not that I am so caught up in productivity that I refuse to rest.

And it’s not that I think that my value lies in my work.

It’s that I literally forget that doing a lot of things a lot of days in a row makes me tired.

So at the end of a flurry of busy days, I find it weird to be tired and my brain wanders off in search of the reason why.

And then, when realization dawns, I have a good laugh at myself and take some downtime.

Brains are weird creatures.