Determined to be hopeful

Sunday View

It’s warm enough and bright enough to lie in my swing today.

Here’s looking up.

A photo of bare tree branches, the black rope from a swing, and the cloudy sky beyond.
Image description: a photo of a cloudy sky, bare tree branches, and the black ropes from my swing. I took this photo while lying on my back in my swing.

Yesterday, I was outside

Last fall, we forgot to take off the caps on the posts on our patio and over the course of the winter, they fell off.

Yesterday was such a nice day that I wanted to get outside for a few minutes so I chose to go find the scattered post caps. (I found 6 of 8 so that was a victory. I think the other two are in a small snowbank on one side of the patio.)

While I was outside in the sunshine, I realized that I had enough time to sit in my swing for a few minutes.

So I did.

And I was astounded by how quickly my body relaxed.

I actually didn’t sit, instead I lay down across the saucer swing and just let it swing gently back and forth.

I swear, I felt the tension in my muscles melt.

Just thinking about it today is having the same effect.

I don’t know why that swing is so relaxing but damn it, I’ll take it!

Slow Start

I am moving at a snail’s pace this morning.

I wasn’t well (headache and general weirdness) last night. It threw off my sleep pattern and I woke up feeling like the bones in my skull had been rearranged.

That’s not a fun feeling, just so you know.

So, I am taking my morning pretty slowly.

The problem is, I have things going on later in the week and early next week that need to be organized now.

Someone else *could* do this stuff if I had written it all down before now but, at this point, I am the only one who can do it.

And if I just leave it until tomorrow, it will mean two things:

1) I’ll spend all day trying not to think about that stuff. Deliberately *not* thinking of stuff takes a lot of energy.

2) Tomorrow will feel rushed and frustrating

So that’s not appealing.

I wonder if I can figure out how to still do these things but just slowly and over a bit more time?

Let’s see how it goes.

A sunny day!

Today was supposed to be cloudy and 5 degrees but the sun decided to make an appearance instead.

It’s ridiculous how much better I feel just because it is a bit brighter outside.

Even the winter-dingy mess of my yard can’t detract from the fact that my swing is inviting me to hang out outside for a while.

A saucer swing hangs from a tree in a early spring backyard
Image description: a photo of the corner of my yard on this sunny day. Most of the foregoing is yellowed grass and old leaves with shadows of bare tree branches but at the back, near my wooden fence are two larger trees, one of which has my circular saucer swing with green trip hanging from it.